Yea so i am back. I am not single anymore...yay me. I hate school now, but i have to say it is better than last year at gay middle school. High school is so much more fun, and you get so much more freedom. I have made so much more friends. But i did find out who my real friends are. People have changed, and i cant stand it. People just need to learn that your real friends come first. Ohh well. But other than that, i dont know if i told you, but i am not on the tennis team. Yea i quit. My sister didnt move back in. I cant believe her, lieing to get her way. The she disobeys my dad, and she goes out everynight to get drunk and high. What is wrong with people. Yea i would say i am not a goody good, but still i am not that low. So much has changed in this past year, and i dont like some of the changes. I wish people could just understand that lifes not all about fun and games. I know i am only 14 and who am i to say all of this, but it is true. I am not a dumb ass, and i know what is right.

Sooo, on August 29th i am going on vacation with my dad. I am going to be helping my aunt and uncle move into there new home, and it even has  an elevater in it.!!!! And on the way down to North Carolina, i am stoping at differnt states and visiting my familly. I cant wait. It is going to be a long ride, but i will live. I am probally staying a week or so, but i wish i could stay longer. This is the one good thing about my dad, every summer he always takes me on a trip. I cant wait to visit my grandpop, i havent seen him in 4 years, and i really miss him. Its really hard on me, not seeing all of these people for a long time, but i am just glad i will get to see them. I am going to see my cousins 2. some of them i have never met before...lol. But i hope i have fun!!!!! I will miss u guys!!! Sorry wont have a computer :(

Okkk. SO some of you know that i have a crush on this kid, Alec. Well i really like this kid at my dads house, Taylor too. He is 16 and Alec is 15. Me and Taylor know eachother way more than i do with Alec. The only problem is I dont know if taylor has a girlfriend. And i cant date him, beacuse, do you know how fast that will get around with my familly. He is my stepbrothrs friend, and that just wont work. And me and Taylor slept togetther, we didnt do anything, we just slept in the same bed, and my stepmom walked in while we were sleeping, and do you know how pissed she was. I wouldnt leave my room that whole day. How embarresing..huh. I have no clue who to choose. I know i will never go out with any of them, b/c  i know they wont go out with me. WHat do I Do???????

Ok, so if you read my other post about myspace, you will understand this post. So my ex boyfrind wrote me a message, saying that he will not delete the myspace, and know he's talking to all my friends, and my friends dont know it is him. OMG i hate him. He called me a bitch. I cant deal with this right now, if my mom finds out that  there is a myspace on the computer, i will be dead. I already contacted myspace, but no one responded. What do i do. I have enough problems with my life, and i dont want to be dealing with my gay ass ex.

Hey people!!! Just uploaded a new pick of me. It was recent, that i took this. Comment if ya wanna.

~Taking Back Sunday & Coheed and Cambria

i've been trying out for next years high school tennis team. I really love to play tennis, i've been playing for 4 years now, next year will make it five if i make the team. I think i have a good chance of making the team. Today was my third tryout, and i am doing great. Out of 40 girls trying out, only 20 is going to make the team. Some of my friends are trying out, but bad thing to say is, i dont want them making the team. I think instead of actually getting better, i think my friends will be distracting me. I would never say that to their faces, but i hate to say it's true. I told my mom this, and she thinks im right. So during practices, i still talk to my friends, but i just try to pay attention, so i can make the team. I love to play alot of sports, but my favorite is tennis, and my other favorite sport is golf. Me and my uncle go golfing every month, and my goal is to try to beat him, came close but no cigar. But i got just pray i make this tennis team.

Ok, so i live with my mom, and visit my dad everyother weekend. I hate going to my dads house, beacuse he dont give a shit about me, he dont make any food, theres never nothing to do (he lives on a highway). Dont have any friends up there. The only friend i have is my sister. She lives there, and i dont know how she takes it? I only go there to see her, it's not like my dad wants to see me. He only drives half way to get me, so he can take off of work, nice dad huh. I really wish my best friend (my sister), would just come back home where she belongs. She is in a alfull school, that also has intruders breaking in, and the school always is in lock down. There was even a intruder in the school, that fired a gun in my step brothers lunch. I need her back home. I always tell her to come back home, but she dosent want to. I dont want my sister killed, My mom is always worring about her, beacuse she left the house without saying goodbye to my mom, and never even bothered to call my mom. We have a perfect familly at home. Whats her problem? NADINE COME HOME!!!

I really like this guy, but there is a little problem. He's my stepbrothers friend, and he dont like his sisters dating his friends. One time my sister did that, and he was pissed. He knows i like him, but it is just not working out. What do i do??

Every day of my summer is taken up. Im trying out for a high school tennis team, and i also have summer school. Monday...tennis, Tuesday...school, Wensday...school, Thursday...school and tennis. The only days i have off is friday saturday and sunday. I hate this summer. There are so many other bad things going wrong so far with familly also. I just can't take it.

OMG!!! there's only 4 days left of school. Graduation is on the 13th, and i can't wait. I am going to be going into 9th grade, and i am so excited

I love Taking Back Sunday, but i don't know much about them. I need anyone who knows a little about them to tell me some stuff. The singer is Super Hotttt, thats one thing i know...lol